School is rearing it's ugly head. I am readying myself for another semester, possibly the toughest one I have ever had.
I am not capable, but God is more than able. In Mark class last semester Mark Scott as well as the commentary we read stressed one fact about the disciples: They were more concerned with their own inability rather than Christ's ability. I think that I am the same way. Sometimes I ponder and think that there is no real difference between the the believers back then and the believers now. Even having seen the risen Lord, Peter still acted poorly to Gentile believers. Before preaching I remark at my inability to speak powerfully, but I believe that the focus of that thought is all wrong. For my focus should not be on how I cannot, but how God can. There is still something within me that is holding on to the idea that I need to know my own weaknesses and fight off prides ugly head. How is that done while still having a proper understanding of God's ability? I guess it is done by realizing that God is so big that he can work within and through me, my strengths, weaknesses, and everything else, and still produce his desired effect. This applies to relationships, finances, politics, ministry and the like. If my focus is on how am I to be perceived, then there is a problem. However, if my focus is on will God be seen as Holy, there is much more power and effect in that.
I am steadily becoming aware that my humanness will not leave me until I am in a resurrected state, and even then it will not be totally gone, but at least the bad stuff will. May my focus be on His glory and on His ability, not on my own inability, or even ability. In the Words of John "I must decrease and He must Increase."
